i was standing strong
and then he called
wanted to let me know that he was genuinely trying to think though "everything"
knocked me off my feet... see... i had worked so hard to draw from my anger and new expectations of future loves to help me move on... build a wall that would keep him from hurting me again
but then he called... and it was like he ripped the bandage off of a healing wound
so now i have hope again, and i am terrified of this feeling... i can't live my life hoping that someone will come around...
yet i don't want my pride to keep me from... whatever i'm too afraid to fantasize about happening

one day at a time. each day focusing on me: my happiness and becoming a better person by serving others...