i wish i was a songwriter.
wish i could write and sing the blues.
i think it's amazing that artists can take a single thought, a single mood and create something that speaks to people.
maybe a song could be my release...

my dad/father tells me to be positive; that i will receive a fellowship for next year.
i wonder why he never tells me to be positive about love.
is a career somehow more important than love? am i missing something?
why are we taught to pursue our dreams of careers and travel and making money... but never love?
why did no one ever teach me about love? i wish someone did...

i am going to be hopeful about love.
i'm going to think of love as a little surprise waiting for me... when i'm ready... when the universe decides that i'm ready.

i'd like to maintain this high until then - to know that it may be at the market, salsa night, or in my phone book.

and i'd like to continue feeling that i am worthy.

trust life...