i have a little crush... yes, i know that i have a boyfriend, but CLEARLY he isn't here (and he's also not doing shit back in atlanta...). there's this guy (sorry alii another guy) that i've been hanging out with. and it's very fun- full of conversation, new experiences and good dancing. so i'm in the early stages of the crush, where you randomly think about the person and wonder what it would be like to do such and such... you know that initial exposure to a person who you don't really know, so you have to invent them in your head; that period without personal flaws exposed, wondering what's next, not even near getting on each other's nerves, or -dare i say it- the first kiss. oh dear... dear, dear, dear. is this cheating? i haven't done anything. and it's all in my head. but maybe i want to? and i knew i was in full crush mode when i pulled out my Ella cd of love ballads, only for the grown and sexy... and i've been inspired to listen to sade in the middle of the afternoon... what a wonderful little place to be in, to space out in class thinking about salsa dancing or driving or just talking and laughing. perhaps i can still have my sex and the city and live in austin.